Friday, May 7, 2010

Fragments

Sometimes the pieces tell the story better than the whole. I have kept a journal since my years at the University of North Carolina. Sometimes I go back through one of these and look at what has been highlighted to see if there is a pattern or if there is something I have forgotten that needs to be remembered. This morning as I sat on the porch, trying to wake from my grogginess, I needed words but could not write anything new. So, I flipped back through the pages and the last 4 months. Here are the fragments from along the way.

Daddy's cancer is on the move
Saying goodbye
Grief
Tired, numb
Is there anything I can do
I know grief is the evidence that death is the result of something gone horribly wrong..it was not part of        the original plan
Truth in the midst of life, death, and resurrection
Shout with joy to God. You brought us into prison...you brought us to a place of abundance
Come and listen.
I cry out for you hand of mercy to heal me. Craig Musseau
http://www.worship.co.za/ww/ww-0108.asp
I am wrung out...feeling a little anxious
In the course of time..
It does not, therefore, depend on man's desire or effort, but on God's
In that day...
If the Lord is God, follow Him
It is He who has made us and not we ourselves
For the Lord is good and His steadfast love endures forever
Listen. Be careful
He brought you out in order to bring you in
Lay Back the Darkness. Kate Campbell
http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/k/kate_campbell/lay_back_the_darkness.html
At that time..you will sorrow no more
Just as I watched over them to uproot and tear down and overthrow, destroy and bring disaster
So will I watch over them to build and to plant
Rise up Lazarus
Continue letting go
Hold onto courage and hope
Do not harden your heart
"This task before me may seem unclear But it, my Maker holds". Bebo Norman
http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/b/bebo_norman/the_hammer_holds.html
He is able to sympathize with my weaknesses
Diligence .. go on .. New
He sets aside the first to establish the second
You need to persevere
Trust...acknowledge...fix your gaze...do not swerve
Practice forgiveness
There is Hope. Stuart Townend
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyMWBx6vvJo
It is finished..nothing else to do..Harmony and Peace promised.
Practice gratitude
Lord of the Living Come Live Here. Michael Kelly Blanchard 
Trust. Do good. Delight. Commit. Be still. Wait. Refrain from anger.
Forgetting what lies behind, straining toward. Eagerly await. He will transform.
Praise. Worship. Rid yourself of .. Repent.
Forgive us
Live in harmony
He himself is our peace
Follow Me
Come Holy Spirit
May your blessing be on your people
A shoot will come up
Come down my pride, stand back my passions .. I wait for God to bless me
Loss reveals
Daddy died
Do not let your heart be troubled .. Trust
Aslan is on the move
Love Lives On. Michael Kelly Blanchard
We Shall All Be Reunited. Patty Griffin
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/pattygriffin/weshallallbereunite.html

2 comments:

  1. Aslan is on the move . . .
    I have been re-reading the Narnia books and each one reminds me of the importance of following in trust and faithfulness though we don't know what the outcome will be. But also of how difficult and hard following can be - yet we are assured that we will be given the strength we need and that we will be forgiven when we fall short. And above all, there is joy and hope knowing that Aslan is on the move.

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  2. Yes, Ginny, Aslan is on the move even when He appears to be standing still.

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